About mid week Dave and I were studying on the quad when Dr. Lord rode up on Ix Chel and said he wanted to speak with Dave and I. I got up on Ix Chel and Dave rode his bike as Dr. Lord took us to a clearing to meet Catherine. They had some gym mats laid out that got me immediately suspicious.
Catherine gave me one of her big hugs and eye'd Dave. He of course had forgotten who she was and I called him stubborn and hard headed to which he smacked my ass and Catherine did not look happy about that. Dr. Lord invited Dave to spar and handed me his pint cup. He seemed so confidant and I didn't understand that. I mean Dr. Lord is a demigod...he could kick ALL our bands asses at once I'm sure. Watching you could see Dr. Lord toying with him and when he got Dave in a lock I heard him tell Dave I was much more fragile than he knew and I felt myself bristle at that. FRAGILE!? I mean yeah I had been through a tremendous amount of stress and emotional trauma but hey I was still here right? But then Catherine touched my shoulder and I felt the anger recede and be replaced by calm...I both hate and love when she does that...damn her. The boys continued and Catherine assured me that none of this makes me weak. I think that they are worried Dave and I are not right for each other and that one or both of us will be hurt when it ends. I don't think like that though. It seems too much like a self fulfilling prophecy. Think too much about it and you WILL ruin what future you may have had. When they finished Dr. Lord and Catherine took us back to the cabin for dinner and we had a more normal conversation.
A few days after that Liam came into the common room and tossed some papers on the table. When I glanced at them I saw they were NYU brochures. I sighed and saw where this was going so I started by apologizing for what happened at the factory. Dave seemed to be able to brush it off as nothing and that disturbed me. I murdered that girl and here he was treating it like I killed her in the heat of battle. Fletch and Liam argued over whether or not what I did was right and I knew that fight could go on for a long time and it was getting to me so I patiently sat there and got a blade out to cut a little at my arms...well apparently Liam saw it cause he yanked it out of my hand. The fight continued and I started to realize a big part of our problem was we had no clear leader. We all had our own ideas and emotions guiding us but no one to step in and say ENOUGH. Liam brought up how Dave acted then and Dave apologized but I don't think Liam sees it as sincere enough. And Fletch promised to TRY to avoid killing when not necessary. Right about then there was a rainbow flash and we were whisked away to a conference room that had Dr. Lord, Ix Chel and two men that made my heart drop at the sight of them.
One man was black and wearing a suit and top hat, Baron Samedi, and the other Latino in an Armani suit, Huitzilopitchli...the scions we killed's fathers. Dr. Lord made the introductions and asked for us to be seated. I sat by Dr. Lord as far from Huitzilopitchli as I could even though, really, if he wanted to he could kill me in an instant. I found myself cutting immediately and Dr. Lord just healed me as I did. Damn it. Huitzilopitchli was first to broach the subject at hand by yelling that his daughter was dead and her sacrifice went to another god, and he wanted justice. Dr. Lord asked for the Baron's thoughts and he seemed unconcerned since he was a death god and could continue to use his son. Huitzilopitchli asked what happened finally and I knew it was time to step up. I told him about Owen and how their children stole Dave's relic and were bargaining with Owen, the corrupted scion of Gaia (now.) They interrupted asking about what the bargain was and I told them what their children told us. Huitzilopitchli asked how we knew Owen was corrupted to which we told him of the screaming for Gaia, the dinosaur bones, and calling the gods fools. Both he and the Baron finally agreed we were in the right...at least enough to not kill us, when Huitzilopitchli glared at Fletch and I and asked why his daughter's corpse was desecrated. In my head I could hear Tepini pleading with me to defend myself...Fletch had told me I could have her and she had insulted me and my father...but I couldn't it felt too much like blaming things other than myself. Finally with a bit of prodding from Tepini and reassurance from Dr. Lord I spoke up and explained that though I was not trying to pass blame she HAD insulted me and my father greatly and I told him her exact words.
The two gods finally let us off the hook and Dr. Lord dismissed us. We exited to find ourselves in the American Natural History Museum in NYC which set me on edge immediately. I can't be comfortable here in NYC anymore it seems. We went for the elevators and out walked Owen. I was so shocked and drained already that I just stood there like an idiot. He spouted off more shit about the gods being inferior and Liam told him there were two gods upstairs at which point Owen fled. Right then I had a freakshow moment and was reminded of how much it SUCKS to have Fate hit you in rapid succession like that without my nagual around. I collapsed against the wall feeling like the wind had been kicked out of me. I told them he was gone...deep in the earth and Zeus was his real father.
Liam was going to stay in the city for the weekend so I asked Dave to wait while I talked to him. My rune was coming due and I could feel the palpable hunger of it and I needed to know if I needed to find another way. He said so long as he was around I could count on him but said I should look for an alternative just in case. We headed to the park and the only secluded place I knew and on the way he told me he was going to try to transfer out. He wasn't happy with the groups morality as a whole and didn't want to impose his views on the group nor did he want to stay with things as they were. I told him I understood and led him to some overgrown bushes, pushing them aside to reveal a small clearing and pond completely hidden by bushes. I sat by the pond and dipped my feet in and told him I'd miss him if he left. He and I have a lot of fun in Chem class and the group needs him. I mean I am now ruled by my emotions, Dave by his fists, and Fletch by blood...Liam replied that he doesn't want to tell others what to do. On top of that he didn't like the idea of having to confront Dave physically if need be. I pointed out that GOOD leaders don't 'make all the decisions', they take in everyones ideas, make sure everyone is heard, and help organize it all and get the group to agree to a course of action. I told him if Dave tried something stupid again I would be the one stepping in to stop him, and I pointed out that Alex seemed to have withdrawn a lot from the group since Jahi left. He considered my words and conceded that I had a logical argument before getting that damned cute mischievous glint in his eye and pushing me into the pond. I didn't even surface before willing the water to lash out and snag him, pulling him in as well. When we got out I shook myself dry (it is SOOO nice to be able to control water now) and he removed his shirt so we could feed the damned rune. I made him promise to slap me if I ever became jaded about how screwed up my pantheon is . I told him to thank his mom for how he turned out before giving him a quick kiss on the cheek and leaving...this city gives me the creeps now.
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Thursday, March 17, 2011
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
I come to a boiling point...
So Liam finally decided to talk to me about my scars. Seeing as everyone else already knew I didn't see the harm in telling him about it. He gave me one of those useless sorries I hate so much and told me some therapy techniques he'd been learning. I smiled and thanked him, mostly cause I didn't feel like talking in depth about it with him.
Dave and I got into yet another fight. I really am getting sick of his shit. I was laying on the couch reading up on Norse mythology and he comes out and we joke a little on what normal is before I ask him what's up. He wanted to know where we stood after that mess with Barry. I told him we were fine and that the reason he pissed me off was because he was being overprotective again of me. I mean yeah Barry had his gun leveled at me but I knew what I was doing goading him and besides my father (and everyone else's) was right there as was Dr. Lord. I knew I was fine. He asked what else he could have done and I told him frankly he could have sat there and not gotten involved...the he got all pissy and lifted me by my foot saying how would I handle this? I hate seeing him act like such girl...what the fuck is his problem?
So lab this Thursday was uneventful thank the gods, though something was going down in the amazon. He also tells us the tongue left behind was the creature's trophy and it can locate unknown scions. Dr. Lord thinks we can handle that and I get a vision of people with Dave's relic. So I had Liam and Fletch go find Alex and I went after Dave since they left before all this was discussed.
I found Dave in his room and we had another fight, worse than the others. There was shoving and pushing and pinning, but not in the fun way of before. he was being prideful and stubborn and I wanted to just hit him but I knew it would do no good since I don't have a lot of strength. Why he can't just listen when I tell him things I don't know but I am certain had I been anyone else in there he would have killed me for how much I pushed him. We went to the common room and in seconds Liam came upstairs and told us Alex was gonna meet us outside.
I follow Liam but Dave, the stubborn fool, leaps out the window and summons his bike on the way down. Liam comments on the lack of discreteness in the act, Dave jumps down Liam's throat and I decide to ignore Dave. We figured out where we needed to go and after slightly more arguing with Dave we drive up north. We found the place and were discussing a plan of action when Dave started acting like a pompous ass treating us all like pieces of shit. Then he called me a bitch again and I had had it. I started walking off. He wanted to do this himself? Fine. Fuck him too. Apparently Dave went ahead and rushed in but I didn't care until the earth started shaking and Liam shouted.
I raced into the building to help Dave only for half of it to explode revealing Owen. Two scions (Aztec chick and Loa guy) were huddled around Dave's brewery and Owen shouted some Gaia nonsense. I admit I didn't pay much attention to this fight cause...well...I was angry. I was angry at Dave for being a jerk, I was angry at Fate for putting me here, and then I felt anger that this girl, an Aztec like me, was helping this fool. I was furious and felt my anger flame white hot as I saw her. I threw my machete at her and had Tepini go for her leg hoping to knock her down but Tepini missed and my machete didn't ever knick her...but I did get her distracted. She started yelling at me and I don't know why I said it but I told her I would give her heart to my father. She took a swing at me but it just bounced off my armor. Suddenly she called out to the other scion and I can only assume one of the boys took her friend out.
I heard the brewery explode, I heard Owen claim their deal was off, but all I could focus on was this traitorous bitch. Tepini and I lunged at her and I told her my father would greatly enjoy drinking of her heart...and I meant it. I knew in that moment I would stop at nothing to give her to my father...I don't know what came over me. Maybe it was meeting Fletch and seeing how comfortable he was with killing, maybe it was knowing my father would be delighted with it if I took her heart for him, and maybe it was just all my rage but her heart was mine. Suddenly Alex had her in a hold and Liam smashed her with a maul. She claimed there was a dictator in Trinidad who was working to summon a titan and only Owen could get through his defenses.
Fletch got us to agree to not kill her right now but I told him her heart WAS going to Tez...I would settle for nothing less. Then she insulted me again and before I could react Tepini launched himself at her neck in a roar of rage. Liam apparently healed the other cause as Tepini lunged at her I heard him shout her name. I was having a very hard time keeping Tepini from ripping her throat out and told them to hurry up and question her. Truthfully I was having a hard time controlling myself too. Alex asked her for details and she spat at him telling him to fuck off. I waited for the others to say more but Alex just said wrong answer and Liam turned away. So I pulled out my obsideon knife and started to pray to my father. I asked him to accept my offer of this traitorous, blasphemous bitches heart and make sure she suffered in Mictlan for what she did. Then I plunged my knife into her heart...
And suddenly I felt all my anger wash away as her blood spewed from the wound I had made. As her blood fell and pooled and I stared at it I felt tears start falling. What had I done? I had just killed this girl, MURDERED her. I knelt down over her watching what I had done, not paying attention to the others, as tears fell. I couldn't stop them. Liam tossed my keys at me and left. I told Fletch to take my car and got up and started walking. I didn't want to be around them right now....I couldn't stop crying and felt an enormous amount of grief fall upon me. It was as if all the walls I had built suddenly failed at once and I felt the grief of lack of parental love, the grief of losing my brother to my father, of the loss of my child, a child I never knew, everything. It all came crashing on me at once. I texted Catherine some nonsense, reaching out to her and kept walking. Within moments she and Dr. Lord came riding on Ix Chel.
Catherine wrapped me in her arms and I stood there sobbing for a moment. Tepini told them what had happened since I couldn't stop crying long enough to get it out. Dr. Lord placed a hand on my shoulder and told me it was ok to cry, to feel this way. I managed to get out how she was held and of no risk to anyone, but he said someone who taunts their captors is ASKING to die. I tried to ask why I couldn't stop crying and Catherine told me it was ok that I was finally healing. Dr. Lord was ready to go find Alejandro and put his head on a pike. I was hurting so bad I wanted to just die and be done with it. I told them I didn't want to face the others right now and was going to stay in the woods that night, at which Catherine looked horrified and Dr. Lord told me I could stay at the cabin for the night. I didn't want to be more of a burden then I already was on them but Dr. Lord and Catherine assured me it was fine and he whisked us all back to his cabin.
I talked some more with Catherine about what I was feeling while Dr. Lord cooked dinner, then I asked her about relationships. Things were so messed up with Dave right now and I felt this weird emptiness inside without him here. She's going to make a good mother someday.
We had dinner and I passed out almost immediately after. Feeling so much after years of feeling nothing will take a lot out of a person, and I love them for taking care of me like they did. They didn't have too but they did.
Dave and I got into yet another fight. I really am getting sick of his shit. I was laying on the couch reading up on Norse mythology and he comes out and we joke a little on what normal is before I ask him what's up. He wanted to know where we stood after that mess with Barry. I told him we were fine and that the reason he pissed me off was because he was being overprotective again of me. I mean yeah Barry had his gun leveled at me but I knew what I was doing goading him and besides my father (and everyone else's) was right there as was Dr. Lord. I knew I was fine. He asked what else he could have done and I told him frankly he could have sat there and not gotten involved...the he got all pissy and lifted me by my foot saying how would I handle this? I hate seeing him act like such girl...what the fuck is his problem?
So lab this Thursday was uneventful thank the gods, though something was going down in the amazon. He also tells us the tongue left behind was the creature's trophy and it can locate unknown scions. Dr. Lord thinks we can handle that and I get a vision of people with Dave's relic. So I had Liam and Fletch go find Alex and I went after Dave since they left before all this was discussed.
I found Dave in his room and we had another fight, worse than the others. There was shoving and pushing and pinning, but not in the fun way of before. he was being prideful and stubborn and I wanted to just hit him but I knew it would do no good since I don't have a lot of strength. Why he can't just listen when I tell him things I don't know but I am certain had I been anyone else in there he would have killed me for how much I pushed him. We went to the common room and in seconds Liam came upstairs and told us Alex was gonna meet us outside.
I follow Liam but Dave, the stubborn fool, leaps out the window and summons his bike on the way down. Liam comments on the lack of discreteness in the act, Dave jumps down Liam's throat and I decide to ignore Dave. We figured out where we needed to go and after slightly more arguing with Dave we drive up north. We found the place and were discussing a plan of action when Dave started acting like a pompous ass treating us all like pieces of shit. Then he called me a bitch again and I had had it. I started walking off. He wanted to do this himself? Fine. Fuck him too. Apparently Dave went ahead and rushed in but I didn't care until the earth started shaking and Liam shouted.
I raced into the building to help Dave only for half of it to explode revealing Owen. Two scions (Aztec chick and Loa guy) were huddled around Dave's brewery and Owen shouted some Gaia nonsense. I admit I didn't pay much attention to this fight cause...well...I was angry. I was angry at Dave for being a jerk, I was angry at Fate for putting me here, and then I felt anger that this girl, an Aztec like me, was helping this fool. I was furious and felt my anger flame white hot as I saw her. I threw my machete at her and had Tepini go for her leg hoping to knock her down but Tepini missed and my machete didn't ever knick her...but I did get her distracted. She started yelling at me and I don't know why I said it but I told her I would give her heart to my father. She took a swing at me but it just bounced off my armor. Suddenly she called out to the other scion and I can only assume one of the boys took her friend out.
I heard the brewery explode, I heard Owen claim their deal was off, but all I could focus on was this traitorous bitch. Tepini and I lunged at her and I told her my father would greatly enjoy drinking of her heart...and I meant it. I knew in that moment I would stop at nothing to give her to my father...I don't know what came over me. Maybe it was meeting Fletch and seeing how comfortable he was with killing, maybe it was knowing my father would be delighted with it if I took her heart for him, and maybe it was just all my rage but her heart was mine. Suddenly Alex had her in a hold and Liam smashed her with a maul. She claimed there was a dictator in Trinidad who was working to summon a titan and only Owen could get through his defenses.
Fletch got us to agree to not kill her right now but I told him her heart WAS going to Tez...I would settle for nothing less. Then she insulted me again and before I could react Tepini launched himself at her neck in a roar of rage. Liam apparently healed the other cause as Tepini lunged at her I heard him shout her name. I was having a very hard time keeping Tepini from ripping her throat out and told them to hurry up and question her. Truthfully I was having a hard time controlling myself too. Alex asked her for details and she spat at him telling him to fuck off. I waited for the others to say more but Alex just said wrong answer and Liam turned away. So I pulled out my obsideon knife and started to pray to my father. I asked him to accept my offer of this traitorous, blasphemous bitches heart and make sure she suffered in Mictlan for what she did. Then I plunged my knife into her heart...
And suddenly I felt all my anger wash away as her blood spewed from the wound I had made. As her blood fell and pooled and I stared at it I felt tears start falling. What had I done? I had just killed this girl, MURDERED her. I knelt down over her watching what I had done, not paying attention to the others, as tears fell. I couldn't stop them. Liam tossed my keys at me and left. I told Fletch to take my car and got up and started walking. I didn't want to be around them right now....I couldn't stop crying and felt an enormous amount of grief fall upon me. It was as if all the walls I had built suddenly failed at once and I felt the grief of lack of parental love, the grief of losing my brother to my father, of the loss of my child, a child I never knew, everything. It all came crashing on me at once. I texted Catherine some nonsense, reaching out to her and kept walking. Within moments she and Dr. Lord came riding on Ix Chel.
Catherine wrapped me in her arms and I stood there sobbing for a moment. Tepini told them what had happened since I couldn't stop crying long enough to get it out. Dr. Lord placed a hand on my shoulder and told me it was ok to cry, to feel this way. I managed to get out how she was held and of no risk to anyone, but he said someone who taunts their captors is ASKING to die. I tried to ask why I couldn't stop crying and Catherine told me it was ok that I was finally healing. Dr. Lord was ready to go find Alejandro and put his head on a pike. I was hurting so bad I wanted to just die and be done with it. I told them I didn't want to face the others right now and was going to stay in the woods that night, at which Catherine looked horrified and Dr. Lord told me I could stay at the cabin for the night. I didn't want to be more of a burden then I already was on them but Dr. Lord and Catherine assured me it was fine and he whisked us all back to his cabin.
I talked some more with Catherine about what I was feeling while Dr. Lord cooked dinner, then I asked her about relationships. Things were so messed up with Dave right now and I felt this weird emptiness inside without him here. She's going to make a good mother someday.
We had dinner and I passed out almost immediately after. Feeling so much after years of feeling nothing will take a lot out of a person, and I love them for taking care of me like they did. They didn't have too but they did.
Monday, February 14, 2011
A lunch made in Mictlan
So I got this invite to lunch in the fancy conference room...ya know the one they only use for VIPs and such? So I got ready, had a nice little dress on and went. As I walked in though I knew it wasn't gonna be a pleasant lunch cause it was all decked out in architecture and art from the various pantheons...which meant it was for or parents.
Sighing I sat down and changed my dress to jeans and a tank top and waited. Dr. Lord was there and confirmed my suspicions and sure enough in walks our parents. Lugh congratulated Liam and did something to/for him that I can only assume was a reward for helping me. Thor and Dave talked about beer (shocker there right?), Alex managed to insult his father but I think that had more to do with Hephaestus being touchy then Alex actually insulting him. Dad decided to congratulate me in my head for keeping at my cutting...why he thinks I do it for his benefit I have no idea but whatever. I still didn't feel like eating so I just toyed with my soup silently and waited for the others...yes I know I acted like a sullen child...back off.
So it turns out this was like a progress report on how things were going. Thor and Heph thought things were going well, but Nergal thought we should be doing more. Sun Wukong and Coyote scoffed at him. Vahram stands up and says we should show them our prowess...like a big battle or something to which Lugh comments it shouldn't be all fighting...and honestly I did not feel like spending my Sunday with these people any longer than I had to. I channeled Chaos and found the best way to end this quickly was to goad Barry...which isn't hard. I looked across the table and asked what he though of all this since the rest of our parents are demon spawn...I may have called him a Jesus freak too.
Sure enough he retorted with us being hellspawn and his father being the one true god...you could hear a pin drop. I was laughing my ass off inside. Nergal looked ready to kill him right there. Coyote was amused and Vahram was in shock. Then Barry pulled his shotgun...aiming at everyone and I goaded him some more so he settled on me. I got a vision that his left shoulder was weak so when he leveled his gun at me I slammed my palm into it...and he was writhing in pain on the floor.
Dr. Lord explained about the spot to Vahram, Dave acted like his usual over protective self, and I sat back down trying not to smile. Vahram yelled at his son then told us punishment was our decision. Dave wanted to pummel him but I think that wound is enough...and now we all know about it. But Vahram agreed with Dave. he can go at it with him whenever and will not avenge Barry if he dies. Stupid men.
As soon as it was over I went straight to my car and headed into town..I need drink, drugs, and dance.
Sighing I sat down and changed my dress to jeans and a tank top and waited. Dr. Lord was there and confirmed my suspicions and sure enough in walks our parents. Lugh congratulated Liam and did something to/for him that I can only assume was a reward for helping me. Thor and Dave talked about beer (shocker there right?), Alex managed to insult his father but I think that had more to do with Hephaestus being touchy then Alex actually insulting him. Dad decided to congratulate me in my head for keeping at my cutting...why he thinks I do it for his benefit I have no idea but whatever. I still didn't feel like eating so I just toyed with my soup silently and waited for the others...yes I know I acted like a sullen child...back off.
So it turns out this was like a progress report on how things were going. Thor and Heph thought things were going well, but Nergal thought we should be doing more. Sun Wukong and Coyote scoffed at him. Vahram stands up and says we should show them our prowess...like a big battle or something to which Lugh comments it shouldn't be all fighting...and honestly I did not feel like spending my Sunday with these people any longer than I had to. I channeled Chaos and found the best way to end this quickly was to goad Barry...which isn't hard. I looked across the table and asked what he though of all this since the rest of our parents are demon spawn...I may have called him a Jesus freak too.
Sure enough he retorted with us being hellspawn and his father being the one true god...you could hear a pin drop. I was laughing my ass off inside. Nergal looked ready to kill him right there. Coyote was amused and Vahram was in shock. Then Barry pulled his shotgun...aiming at everyone and I goaded him some more so he settled on me. I got a vision that his left shoulder was weak so when he leveled his gun at me I slammed my palm into it...and he was writhing in pain on the floor.
Dr. Lord explained about the spot to Vahram, Dave acted like his usual over protective self, and I sat back down trying not to smile. Vahram yelled at his son then told us punishment was our decision. Dave wanted to pummel him but I think that wound is enough...and now we all know about it. But Vahram agreed with Dave. he can go at it with him whenever and will not avenge Barry if he dies. Stupid men.
As soon as it was over I went straight to my car and headed into town..I need drink, drugs, and dance.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
I slip into old habbits
This last month has been...trying. It started with this shit with my dad. I spent a week fuming and trying to figure out what to do about a rune that needs to be FED HUMAN BLOOD FROM THE HEART. I mean FUCK YOU TOO dad. I finally went to the guys and asked their advice. We were brainstorming when I went to find Ix Chel. She got on my case for tying myself to closely to Dr. Lord and for my need to say the first thing that comes into my brain (including my visions.)
She wasn't a lot of help with my rune issue but she did get me thinking about how little I know about the human body, so I went to see Liam cause he is pre-med. After discussing it a bit he said he had an idea. As I watched he pulled out his knife and stabbed himself in the heart! NO SHIT IN THE HEART! I didn't know what to do other than take the blade when he handed it to me and feed the damn rune. I was stunned.
That night he held a movie night which was fun despite the fact it was all fantasy based. But fun to just hang out and be normal. He even got my favorite soda which I had run out of which was nice. Funny in high school I always thought he was a self absorbed jock like the rest...guess that's what I get for assuming things.
The next few weeks I didn't eat or sleep. I kept getting visions of bad stuff. Some of it of the people I know and care for, some of more abstract things but all of it bad. After my chat with Ix Chel I knew I shouldn't go to Dr. Lord with it and my bandmates wouldn't understand. I spent all my time out in the forest with Tepini. He'd hunt and I'd sit in the trees getting high and cutting myself. I know people don't understand it but the cutting...the pain it brings is the best feeling in the world. Better even than the high my pills give me. At one point Dave tried to get me to talk to him but he was the last person I needed to discuss this with.
A few days ago Catherine found me out in the woods. Apparently Ix Chel did tell her I wanted to talk to her but she didn't tell her it was important...and it took Dr. Lord mentioning how worn I was looking in class to trigger a prophetic vision and know how bad it was getting. To be honest I didn't know how much I was letting it effect me. She made me eat a granola bar and we had a talk about Ix Chel and Prophecy in general. Apparently being around Kiti more will help, but he irritates me so much I'm not sure it is worth the hassle. I finally told her about all of my visions, including Dr. Lord becoming the 6th sun, and my father and uncles worry over him and now me. It scares me that two gods are worried enough about me to interfere in my life so much.
After we finished she asked me to be her bridesmaid in their wedding. I was shocked. I mean she barely knows me but since Dr. Lord does see me as family she said it was a natural thing. Now we both know I don't believe in love or relationships but I won't stand in the way of others or argue the point, so I am more than happy to be a part of it. I finally got her number and she has mine.
As I was about to fall asleep that night I got a vision (FUCK) but it wasn't bad. It was Dr. Lord and Catherine talking. Turns out Dr. Lord is just as worried and confused about how to react around me as I am him, and while he is worried about me he is also a bit relieved I have not been around. I'm not sure how to take that but I was too tired to figure it out.
She wasn't a lot of help with my rune issue but she did get me thinking about how little I know about the human body, so I went to see Liam cause he is pre-med. After discussing it a bit he said he had an idea. As I watched he pulled out his knife and stabbed himself in the heart! NO SHIT IN THE HEART! I didn't know what to do other than take the blade when he handed it to me and feed the damn rune. I was stunned.
That night he held a movie night which was fun despite the fact it was all fantasy based. But fun to just hang out and be normal. He even got my favorite soda which I had run out of which was nice. Funny in high school I always thought he was a self absorbed jock like the rest...guess that's what I get for assuming things.
The next few weeks I didn't eat or sleep. I kept getting visions of bad stuff. Some of it of the people I know and care for, some of more abstract things but all of it bad. After my chat with Ix Chel I knew I shouldn't go to Dr. Lord with it and my bandmates wouldn't understand. I spent all my time out in the forest with Tepini. He'd hunt and I'd sit in the trees getting high and cutting myself. I know people don't understand it but the cutting...the pain it brings is the best feeling in the world. Better even than the high my pills give me. At one point Dave tried to get me to talk to him but he was the last person I needed to discuss this with.
A few days ago Catherine found me out in the woods. Apparently Ix Chel did tell her I wanted to talk to her but she didn't tell her it was important...and it took Dr. Lord mentioning how worn I was looking in class to trigger a prophetic vision and know how bad it was getting. To be honest I didn't know how much I was letting it effect me. She made me eat a granola bar and we had a talk about Ix Chel and Prophecy in general. Apparently being around Kiti more will help, but he irritates me so much I'm not sure it is worth the hassle. I finally told her about all of my visions, including Dr. Lord becoming the 6th sun, and my father and uncles worry over him and now me. It scares me that two gods are worried enough about me to interfere in my life so much.
After we finished she asked me to be her bridesmaid in their wedding. I was shocked. I mean she barely knows me but since Dr. Lord does see me as family she said it was a natural thing. Now we both know I don't believe in love or relationships but I won't stand in the way of others or argue the point, so I am more than happy to be a part of it. I finally got her number and she has mine.
As I was about to fall asleep that night I got a vision (FUCK) but it wasn't bad. It was Dr. Lord and Catherine talking. Turns out Dr. Lord is just as worried and confused about how to react around me as I am him, and while he is worried about me he is also a bit relieved I have not been around. I'm not sure how to take that but I was too tired to figure it out.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
The second worst night clubbing I've ever had
Man I was so excited to be going to the city for some club time. I mean I know it's an 8 hour drive but to me it is worth it. NYC clubs have been home for me, for almost 3 years now. Liam, Sean, Dave, and Becca ended up going with me so it promised to be pretty fun.
But as usual nothing can ever be so easy. I had called ahead to be sure we got a VIP room and when we got there was told it wasn't ready. Fine, whatever I had some dacing to do. Liam got out there and was busting a move and I have to say the boy can groove. If he weren't so damn uptight he would be worth chasing after. Dave went to take care of drinks, Sean went to find him self a piece of ass (I assume) and Becca and I went to dance.
Turns out Becca had YET to tell Dave so I said "Let me go make out with some girl then YOU can go talk to him about it. She agreed and went to find Dave. I found this totally hot blond with a nice rack and had almost forgotten about WHY I was with her when I got a tap on the shoulder from Dave. He couldn't find Becca. So I looked around and there she was at the bar, making out with a girl. Dave just kind of stood there in shock. It would have been funny if it weren't sad. We made our way over there and Becca went off about how Dave was dense and she liked him but he never saw it or picked up on it, and she couldn't wait forever. This was where my night took a dive.
I went to check on the room only to find it was set up wrong and when I got back down and looked at the door I saw my brother walking in with his girlfriend. He has that same cold look my father does but all I could do was stand there in shock. He walked over and had me introduse him and told me his girlfriend was his fiance (no doubt at father's order.) He was about to leave and I could myself starting to relax when he called me the worse thing in the world...babykiller.
On some level I know it isn't true. That what happened was not my fault and I had no control of what occured, but it still hits deep. He could not have hurt me worse if he had killed Tepini. So I did the only rational thing I could do. I fled. I got the fuck out of there and found James (thank Fate he was in the club tonight) my old dealer. James had some of my old favorite and without even thinking I sat down, grabbed a tube and snorted two lines. Yes I know, not my smartest move but at that point in time all I could think about was killing myself so instead I went and found some fun. I was just snorting the third when Dave plopped down a wad of cash and asked for two lines. I have to say it almost shocked me out of my oncoming high. He paid, James handed him a tube and he took two lines.
Now my high was hitting so I'm a bit fuzzy after that but I think Dave took 5 of my E pills and downed a LOT of alcohol before stumbling outside after Liam came over. I handed him the slip for the keys so I didn't try to drive (YAY me!) and he went to find Becca. I found Sean and danced a bit (though let face it, it was more like dry humping him on the dance floor) and then Liam came to get us. We piled into the car and I think I fell asleep on Dave...slept the whole way home though.
Huh...home...when did I start thinking of Harmon as home?
But as usual nothing can ever be so easy. I had called ahead to be sure we got a VIP room and when we got there was told it wasn't ready. Fine, whatever I had some dacing to do. Liam got out there and was busting a move and I have to say the boy can groove. If he weren't so damn uptight he would be worth chasing after. Dave went to take care of drinks, Sean went to find him self a piece of ass (I assume) and Becca and I went to dance.
Turns out Becca had YET to tell Dave so I said "Let me go make out with some girl then YOU can go talk to him about it. She agreed and went to find Dave. I found this totally hot blond with a nice rack and had almost forgotten about WHY I was with her when I got a tap on the shoulder from Dave. He couldn't find Becca. So I looked around and there she was at the bar, making out with a girl. Dave just kind of stood there in shock. It would have been funny if it weren't sad. We made our way over there and Becca went off about how Dave was dense and she liked him but he never saw it or picked up on it, and she couldn't wait forever. This was where my night took a dive.
I went to check on the room only to find it was set up wrong and when I got back down and looked at the door I saw my brother walking in with his girlfriend. He has that same cold look my father does but all I could do was stand there in shock. He walked over and had me introduse him and told me his girlfriend was his fiance (no doubt at father's order.) He was about to leave and I could myself starting to relax when he called me the worse thing in the world...babykiller.
On some level I know it isn't true. That what happened was not my fault and I had no control of what occured, but it still hits deep. He could not have hurt me worse if he had killed Tepini. So I did the only rational thing I could do. I fled. I got the fuck out of there and found James (thank Fate he was in the club tonight) my old dealer. James had some of my old favorite and without even thinking I sat down, grabbed a tube and snorted two lines. Yes I know, not my smartest move but at that point in time all I could think about was killing myself so instead I went and found some fun. I was just snorting the third when Dave plopped down a wad of cash and asked for two lines. I have to say it almost shocked me out of my oncoming high. He paid, James handed him a tube and he took two lines.
Now my high was hitting so I'm a bit fuzzy after that but I think Dave took 5 of my E pills and downed a LOT of alcohol before stumbling outside after Liam came over. I handed him the slip for the keys so I didn't try to drive (YAY me!) and he went to find Becca. I found Sean and danced a bit (though let face it, it was more like dry humping him on the dance floor) and then Liam came to get us. We piled into the car and I think I fell asleep on Dave...slept the whole way home though.
Huh...home...when did I start thinking of Harmon as home?
Sunday, December 5, 2010
If life is supposed to be ups and downs, I'd love to hit an up swing. kthx?
So I don't know WHY I did it but somehow I managed to spill my guts to Alex and Jahi. Damn it all. I mean what is going to happen if it get's back to Alejandro? Damn. DAMN DAMN DAMN!
I've spent a lot of time working out and reading...at least them I am less likely to reveal any more. These visions have been a bitch lately. Channeling Fate like that takes a lot out of me. And a lot of it is "if this happens you are doooooooooooomed!!!111!!!" kind of things. Like Dr. Lord's sword. The next time he pulls it in my presence all hope of winning is lost. And I found out my dad gave it to him. Today during his biology class I found out about Dr. Lord's band...and that they are key to our surviving this semester. Why can't I get a vision of my next boyfriend or something? Oh wait cause that would be normal for mortals and I'm no longer either of those.
We sent our pets out to search for more bears, hoping to find their home and clues as to who is making them. I worry for Tepini's safety but our connection means I will know the moment anything happens.
Oh and in class we met a new student. Liam O'Doherty, a scion like us. Turns out he is the sports super star from my school ((Hi Fate! >:()) Dr. Lord ran some slides showing us what we can expect in our new life and then gave us a sort of placement test...C-. UGH! Not a good start.
After that Jahi and I had Mythology class. While I did learn some new things it was fun to make fun of the stuff we knew was wrong. Well I need to get ready to meet with Dr. Lord, I really need to talk to him about this Prophecy stuff.
I've spent a lot of time working out and reading...at least them I am less likely to reveal any more. These visions have been a bitch lately. Channeling Fate like that takes a lot out of me. And a lot of it is "if this happens you are doooooooooooomed!!!111!!!" kind of things. Like Dr. Lord's sword. The next time he pulls it in my presence all hope of winning is lost. And I found out my dad gave it to him. Today during his biology class I found out about Dr. Lord's band...and that they are key to our surviving this semester. Why can't I get a vision of my next boyfriend or something? Oh wait cause that would be normal for mortals and I'm no longer either of those.
We sent our pets out to search for more bears, hoping to find their home and clues as to who is making them. I worry for Tepini's safety but our connection means I will know the moment anything happens.
Oh and in class we met a new student. Liam O'Doherty, a scion like us. Turns out he is the sports super star from my school ((Hi Fate! >:()) Dr. Lord ran some slides showing us what we can expect in our new life and then gave us a sort of placement test...C-. UGH! Not a good start.
After that Jahi and I had Mythology class. While I did learn some new things it was fun to make fun of the stuff we knew was wrong. Well I need to get ready to meet with Dr. Lord, I really need to talk to him about this Prophecy stuff.
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