This last month has been...trying. It started with this shit with my dad. I spent a week fuming and trying to figure out what to do about a rune that needs to be FED HUMAN BLOOD FROM THE HEART. I mean FUCK YOU TOO dad. I finally went to the guys and asked their advice. We were brainstorming when I went to find Ix Chel. She got on my case for tying myself to closely to Dr. Lord and for my need to say the first thing that comes into my brain (including my visions.)
She wasn't a lot of help with my rune issue but she did get me thinking about how little I know about the human body, so I went to see Liam cause he is pre-med. After discussing it a bit he said he had an idea. As I watched he pulled out his knife and stabbed himself in the heart! NO SHIT IN THE HEART! I didn't know what to do other than take the blade when he handed it to me and feed the damn rune. I was stunned.
That night he held a movie night which was fun despite the fact it was all fantasy based. But fun to just hang out and be normal. He even got my favorite soda which I had run out of which was nice. Funny in high school I always thought he was a self absorbed jock like the rest...guess that's what I get for assuming things.
The next few weeks I didn't eat or sleep. I kept getting visions of bad stuff. Some of it of the people I know and care for, some of more abstract things but all of it bad. After my chat with Ix Chel I knew I shouldn't go to Dr. Lord with it and my bandmates wouldn't understand. I spent all my time out in the forest with Tepini. He'd hunt and I'd sit in the trees getting high and cutting myself. I know people don't understand it but the cutting...the pain it brings is the best feeling in the world. Better even than the high my pills give me. At one point Dave tried to get me to talk to him but he was the last person I needed to discuss this with.
A few days ago Catherine found me out in the woods. Apparently Ix Chel did tell her I wanted to talk to her but she didn't tell her it was important...and it took Dr. Lord mentioning how worn I was looking in class to trigger a prophetic vision and know how bad it was getting. To be honest I didn't know how much I was letting it effect me. She made me eat a granola bar and we had a talk about Ix Chel and Prophecy in general. Apparently being around Kiti more will help, but he irritates me so much I'm not sure it is worth the hassle. I finally told her about all of my visions, including Dr. Lord becoming the 6th sun, and my father and uncles worry over him and now me. It scares me that two gods are worried enough about me to interfere in my life so much.
After we finished she asked me to be her bridesmaid in their wedding. I was shocked. I mean she barely knows me but since Dr. Lord does see me as family she said it was a natural thing. Now we both know I don't believe in love or relationships but I won't stand in the way of others or argue the point, so I am more than happy to be a part of it. I finally got her number and she has mine.
As I was about to fall asleep that night I got a vision (FUCK) but it wasn't bad. It was Dr. Lord and Catherine talking. Turns out Dr. Lord is just as worried and confused about how to react around me as I am him, and while he is worried about me he is also a bit relieved I have not been around. I'm not sure how to take that but I was too tired to figure it out.
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