Family issues.

About mid week Dave and I were studying on the quad when Dr. Lord rode up on Ix Chel and said he wanted to speak with Dave and I.  I got up on Ix Chel and Dave rode his bike as Dr. Lord took us to a clearing to meet Catherine.  They had some gym mats laid out that got me immediately suspicious.

Catherine gave me one of her big hugs and eye'd Dave.  He of course had forgotten who she was and I called him stubborn and hard headed to which he smacked my ass and Catherine did not look happy about that.  Dr. Lord invited Dave to spar and handed me his pint cup.  He seemed so confidant and I didn't understand that.  I mean Dr. Lord is a demigod...he could kick ALL our bands asses at once I'm sure.  Watching you could see Dr. Lord toying with him and when he got Dave in a lock I heard him tell Dave I was much more fragile than he knew and I felt myself bristle at that.  FRAGILE!?  I mean yeah I had been through a tremendous amount of stress and emotional trauma but hey I was still here right?  But then Catherine touched my shoulder and I felt the anger recede and be replaced by calm...I both hate and love when she does that...damn her.  The boys continued and Catherine assured me that none of this makes me weak.  I think that they are worried Dave and I are not right for each other and that one or both of us will be hurt when it ends.  I don't think like that though.  It seems too much like a self fulfilling prophecy.  Think too much about it and you WILL ruin what future you may have had.  When they finished Dr. Lord and Catherine took us back to the cabin for dinner and we had a more normal conversation.

A few days after that Liam came into the common room and tossed some papers on the table.  When I glanced at them I saw they were NYU brochures.  I sighed and saw where this was going so I started by apologizing for what happened at the factory.  Dave seemed to be able to brush it off as nothing and that disturbed me.  I murdered that girl and here he was treating it like I killed her in the heat of battle.  Fletch and Liam argued over whether or not what I did was right and I knew that fight could go on for a long time and it was getting to me so I patiently sat there and got a blade out to cut a little at my arms...well apparently Liam saw it cause he yanked it out of my hand.  The fight continued and I started to realize a big part of our problem was we had no clear leader.  We all had our own ideas and emotions guiding us but no one to step in and say ENOUGH.  Liam brought up how Dave acted then and Dave apologized but I don't think Liam sees it as sincere enough.  And Fletch promised to TRY to avoid killing when not necessary.  Right about then there was a rainbow flash and we were whisked away to a conference room that had Dr. Lord, Ix Chel and two men that made my heart drop at the sight of them.

One man was black and wearing a suit and top hat, Baron Samedi, and the other Latino in an Armani suit, Huitzilopitchli...the scions we killed's fathers.  Dr. Lord made the introductions and asked for us to be seated.  I sat by Dr. Lord as far from Huitzilopitchli as I could even though, really, if he wanted to he could kill me in an instant.  I found myself cutting immediately and Dr. Lord just healed me as I did.  Damn it.  Huitzilopitchli was first to broach the subject at hand by yelling that his daughter was dead and her sacrifice went to another god, and he wanted justice.  Dr. Lord asked for the Baron's thoughts and he seemed unconcerned since he was a death god and could continue to use his son.  Huitzilopitchli asked what happened finally and I knew it was time to step up.  I told him about Owen and how their children stole Dave's relic and were bargaining with Owen, the corrupted scion of Gaia (now.)  They interrupted asking about what the bargain was and I told them what their children told us.  Huitzilopitchli asked how we knew Owen was corrupted to which we told him of the screaming for Gaia, the dinosaur bones, and calling the gods fools.  Both he and the Baron finally agreed we were in the right...at least enough to not kill us, when Huitzilopitchli glared at Fletch and I and asked why his daughter's corpse was desecrated.  In my head I could hear Tepini pleading with me to defend myself...Fletch had told me I could have her and she had insulted me and my father...but I couldn't it felt too much like blaming things other than myself.  Finally with a bit of prodding from Tepini and reassurance from Dr. Lord I spoke up and explained that though I was not trying to pass blame she HAD insulted me and my father greatly and I told him her exact words.

The two gods finally let us off the hook and Dr. Lord dismissed us.  We exited to find ourselves in the American Natural History Museum in NYC which set me on edge immediately.  I can't be comfortable here in NYC anymore it seems.  We went for the elevators and out walked Owen.  I was so shocked and drained already that I just stood there like an idiot.  He spouted off more shit about the gods being inferior and Liam told him there were two gods upstairs at which point Owen fled.  Right then I had a freakshow moment and was reminded of how much it SUCKS to have Fate hit you in rapid succession like that without my nagual around.  I collapsed against the wall feeling like the wind had been kicked out of me.  I told them he was gone...deep in the earth and Zeus was his real father.

Liam was going to stay in the city for the weekend so I asked Dave to wait while I talked to him.  My rune was coming due and I could feel the palpable hunger of it and I needed to know if I needed to find another way.  He said so long as he was around I could count on him but said I should look for an alternative just in case.  We headed to the park and the only secluded place I knew and on the way he told me he was going to try to transfer out.  He wasn't happy with the groups morality as a whole and didn't want to impose his views on the group nor did he want to stay with things as they were.  I told him I understood and led him to some overgrown bushes, pushing them aside to reveal a small clearing and pond completely hidden by bushes.  I sat by the pond and dipped my feet in and told him I'd miss him if he left.  He and I have a lot of fun in Chem class and the group needs him.  I mean I am now ruled by my emotions, Dave by his fists, and Fletch by blood...Liam replied that he doesn't want to tell others what to do.  On top of that he didn't like the idea of having to confront Dave physically if need be.  I pointed out that GOOD leaders don't 'make all the decisions', they take in everyones ideas, make sure everyone is heard, and help organize it all and get the group to agree to a course of action.  I told him if Dave tried something stupid again I would be the one stepping in to stop him, and I pointed out that Alex seemed to have withdrawn a lot from the group since Jahi left.  He considered my words and conceded that I had a logical argument before getting that damned cute mischievous glint in his eye and pushing me into the pond.  I didn't even surface before willing the water to lash out and snag him, pulling him in as well.  When we got out I shook myself dry (it is SOOO nice to be able to control water now) and he removed his shirt so we could feed the damned rune.  I made him promise to slap me if I ever became jaded about how screwed up my pantheon is .  I told him to thank his mom for how he turned out before giving him a quick kiss on the cheek and leaving...this city gives me the creeps now.

Ending on a high note...for now.

Have you ever felt like you've been put through a dough press?  That's what I am feeling now.  I mean I just had all my walls busted down and go the joys of feeling 14 years of sadness all at once.  I'm shocked I didn't kill myself in the few mins it took Catherine and Dr. Lord to get to me.  But then I HAD been reading up on Mictlan and Dr. Lord is right...it is somewhere I need to avoid at all costs.

Anyway I was feeling like shit when I got back to the dorms.  I had woke up silently crying in the middle of the night and tried to not wake Dr. Lord up.  I was like a zombie in class and seeing Dave still angry was like a kick in my gut...gods I really had hurt him hadn't I?  After classes I went back out to the woods and cut some more.  Now though instead of feeling good to fill a void (cause I don't think I have a void anymore) I needed to drown out all the bad I was feeling.  And yep it still felt good.

Suddenly Dave came crashing through the forest and knocked my knife out of my hand and I felt myself getting mad at him again.  He asked why.  I told him to fuck off. He called me a selfish little girl out for attention.  I asked if he ever listens to anything I tell him, that it's about feeling not attention.  Then he kissed me...and I felt myself melt into him for a moment before pulling back, angry at myself.  One kiss wasn't going to make the fact that he and I seem to do nothing but fight go away.  We argued some more about my lack of feelings and he started to walk off...

...but came back and he looked furious.  He accused me of taking from him but never giving back and hit me right across the face.  I suppose I could have gotten out of the way or summoned Tepini (oh he was RAGING mad I could here him in my head) but in a way I felt I deserved it.  I had hurt him.  And if this is what he needed to do then I would let him do it.  He yelled and hit me a few more times and I could feel my eye puffing up and closing when I felt a spark in me turn to a wildfire...I loved him.  I did, I could see if burning right there in an empty part of my heart and the fire consumed a lot of my pain and anger.  I launched myself at him kissing him deeply, passionately, and for the first time in my life I felt myself love someone.

I undid my armor letting it fall to the forest floor, and he followed suit.  And as I looked at him I finally told him I loved him.  The rest I think I will leave private for once.  We spent the weekend together and I told him in no uncertain terms that I would not be treated like a frail child.  It is equals or not at all.

I am terrified of what this means for me though.  I have never been in a relationship, never loved anyone...no that isn't all true.  I recognize now I loved my child even though I never met him or her.  But I never loved a partner, and relationships are scary.  I haven't had the best examples of how one should work and frankly Dave and I are both very stubborn and very quick to anger...gods help us both.

I come to a boiling point...

So Liam finally decided to talk to me about my scars.  Seeing as everyone else already knew I didn't see the harm in telling him about it.  He gave me one of those useless sorries I hate so much and told me some therapy techniques he'd been learning.  I smiled and thanked him, mostly cause I didn't feel like talking in depth about it with him.

Dave and I got into yet another fight.  I really am getting sick of his shit.  I was laying on the couch reading up on Norse mythology and he comes out and we joke a little on what normal is before I ask him what's up.  He wanted to know where we stood after that mess with Barry.  I told him we were fine and that the reason he pissed me off was because he was being overprotective again of me.  I mean yeah Barry had his gun leveled at me but I knew what I was doing goading him and besides my father (and everyone else's) was right there as was Dr. Lord.  I knew I was fine.  He asked what else he could have done and I told him frankly he could have sat there and not gotten involved...the he got all pissy and lifted me by my foot saying how would I handle this?  I hate seeing him act like such girl...what the fuck is his problem?

So lab this Thursday was uneventful thank the gods, though something was going down in the amazon.  He also tells us the tongue left behind was the creature's trophy and it can locate unknown scions.  Dr. Lord thinks we can handle that and I get a vision of people with Dave's relic.  So I had Liam and Fletch go find Alex and I went after Dave since they left before all this was discussed.

I found Dave in his room and we had another fight, worse than the others.  There was shoving and pushing and pinning, but not in the fun way of before.  he was being prideful and stubborn and I wanted to just hit him but I knew it would do no good since I don't have a lot of strength.  Why he can't just listen when I tell him things I don't know but I am certain had I been anyone else in there he would have killed me for how much I pushed him.  We went to the common room and in seconds Liam came upstairs and told us Alex was gonna meet us outside.

I follow Liam but Dave, the stubborn fool, leaps out the window and summons his bike on the way down.  Liam comments on the lack of discreteness in the act, Dave jumps down Liam's throat and I decide to ignore Dave.  We figured out where we needed to go and after slightly more arguing with Dave we drive up north.  We found the place and were discussing a plan of action when Dave started acting like a pompous ass treating us all like pieces of shit.  Then he called me a bitch again and I had had it.  I started walking off.  He wanted to do this himself?  Fine.  Fuck him too.  Apparently Dave went ahead and rushed in but I didn't care until the earth started shaking and Liam shouted.

I raced into the building to help Dave only for half of it to explode revealing Owen.  Two scions (Aztec chick and Loa guy) were huddled around Dave's brewery and Owen shouted some Gaia nonsense.  I admit I didn't pay much attention to this fight cause...well...I was angry.  I was angry at Dave for being a jerk, I was angry at Fate for putting me here, and then I felt anger that this girl, an Aztec like me, was helping this fool.  I was furious and felt my anger flame white hot as I saw her.  I threw my machete at her and had Tepini go for her leg hoping to knock her down but Tepini missed and my machete didn't ever knick her...but I did get her distracted.  She started yelling at me and I don't know why I said it but I told her I would give her heart to my father.  She took a swing at me but it just bounced off my armor.  Suddenly she called out to the other scion and I can only assume one of the boys took her friend out.

I heard the brewery explode, I heard Owen claim their deal was off, but all I could focus on was this traitorous bitch.  Tepini and I lunged at her and I told her my father would greatly enjoy drinking of her heart...and I meant it.  I knew in that moment I would stop at nothing to give her to my father...I don't know what came over me.  Maybe it was meeting Fletch and seeing how comfortable he was with killing, maybe it was knowing my father would be delighted with it if I took her heart for him, and maybe it was just all my rage but her heart was mine.  Suddenly Alex had her in a hold and Liam smashed her with a maul.  She claimed there was a dictator in Trinidad who was working to summon a titan and only Owen could get through his defenses.

Fletch got us to agree to not kill her right now but I told him her heart WAS going to Tez...I would settle for nothing less.  Then she insulted me again and before I could react Tepini launched himself at her neck in a roar of rage.  Liam apparently healed the other cause as Tepini lunged at her I heard him shout her name.  I was having a very hard time keeping Tepini from ripping her throat out and told them to hurry up and question her.  Truthfully I was having a hard time controlling myself too.  Alex asked her for details and she spat at him telling him to fuck off.  I waited for the others to say more but Alex just said wrong answer and Liam turned away.  So I pulled out my obsideon knife and started to pray to my father.  I asked him to accept my offer of this traitorous, blasphemous bitches heart and make sure she suffered in Mictlan for what she did.  Then I plunged my knife into her heart...

And suddenly I felt all my anger wash away as her blood spewed from the wound I had made.  As her blood fell and pooled and I stared at it I felt tears start falling.  What had I done?  I had just killed this girl, MURDERED her.  I knelt down over her watching what I had done, not paying attention to the others, as tears fell.  I couldn't stop them.  Liam tossed my keys at me and left.  I told Fletch to take my car and got up and started walking.  I didn't want to be around them right now....I couldn't stop crying and felt an enormous amount of grief fall upon me.  It was as if all the walls I had built suddenly failed at once and I felt the grief of lack of parental love, the grief of losing my brother to my father, of the loss of my child, a child I never knew, everything.  It all came crashing on me at once.  I texted Catherine some nonsense, reaching out to her and kept walking.  Within moments she and Dr. Lord came riding on Ix Chel.

Catherine wrapped me in her arms and I stood there sobbing for a moment.  Tepini told them what had happened since I couldn't stop crying long enough to get it out.  Dr. Lord placed a hand on my shoulder and told me it was ok to cry, to feel this way.  I managed to get out how she was held and of no risk to anyone, but he said someone who taunts their captors is ASKING to die.  I tried to ask why I couldn't stop crying and Catherine told me it was ok that I was finally healing.  Dr. Lord was ready to go find Alejandro and put his head on a pike.  I was hurting so bad I wanted to just die and be done with it.  I told them I didn't want to face the others right now and was going to stay in the woods that night, at which Catherine looked horrified and Dr. Lord told me I could stay at the cabin for the night.  I didn't want to be more of a burden then I already was on them but Dr. Lord and Catherine assured me it was fine and he whisked us all back to his cabin.

I talked some more with Catherine about what I was feeling while Dr. Lord cooked dinner, then I asked her about relationships.  Things were so messed up with Dave right now and I felt this weird emptiness inside without him here.  She's going to make a good mother someday.

We had dinner and I passed out almost immediately after.  Feeling so much after years of feeling nothing will take a lot out of a person, and I love them for taking care of me like they did.  They didn't have too but they did.

A lunch made in Mictlan

So I got this invite to lunch in the fancy conference room...ya know the one they only use for VIPs and such?  So I got ready, had a nice little dress on and went.  As I walked in though I knew it wasn't gonna be a pleasant lunch cause it was all decked out in architecture and art from the various pantheons...which meant it was for or parents.

Sighing I sat down and changed my dress to jeans and a tank top and waited.  Dr. Lord was there and confirmed my suspicions and sure enough in walks our parents.  Lugh congratulated Liam and did something to/for him that I can only assume was a reward for helping me.  Thor and Dave talked about beer (shocker there right?), Alex managed to insult his father but I think that had more to do with Hephaestus being touchy then Alex actually insulting him.  Dad decided to congratulate me in my head for keeping at my cutting...why he thinks I do it for his benefit I have no idea but whatever.  I still didn't feel like eating so I just toyed with my soup silently and waited for the others...yes I know I acted like a sullen child...back off.

So it turns out this was like a progress report on how things were going.  Thor and Heph thought things were going well, but Nergal thought we should be doing more.  Sun Wukong and Coyote scoffed at him.  Vahram stands up and says we should show them our prowess...like a big battle or something to which Lugh comments it shouldn't be all fighting...and honestly I did not feel like spending my Sunday with these people any longer than I had to.  I channeled Chaos and found the best way to end this quickly was to goad Barry...which isn't hard.  I looked across the table and asked what he though of all this since the rest of our parents are demon spawn...I may have called him a Jesus freak too.

Sure enough he retorted with us being hellspawn and his father being the one true god...you could hear a pin drop.  I was laughing my ass off inside.  Nergal looked ready to kill him right there.  Coyote was amused and Vahram was in shock.  Then Barry pulled his shotgun...aiming at everyone and I goaded him some more so he settled on me.  I got a vision that his left shoulder was weak so when he leveled his gun at me I slammed my palm into it...and he was writhing in pain on the floor.

Dr. Lord explained about the spot to Vahram, Dave acted like his usual over protective self, and I sat back down trying not to smile.  Vahram yelled at his son then told us punishment was our decision.  Dave wanted to pummel him but I think that wound is enough...and now we all know about it.  But Vahram agreed with Dave.  he can go at it with him whenever and will not avenge Barry if he dies.  Stupid men.

As soon as it was over I went straight to my car and headed into town..I need drink, drugs, and dance.

I meet my uncle...and worry him

So let's see in the past TWO DAYS I have done cocaine for the first time in months, taken Dave's V-card, gone to the rainforest and nearly got killed, argued with Dave, had epic sex with Sean, made up with Dave, went to fetch my nargual, mouthed off a bit to my father and uncle, and saw more creepy visions thanks to the freakshow.....yeah it's been a fun two days.


Let's skip to the important part.  Dr. Lord, Catherine and Luciano we're there to set this up and send Dr. Lord, Dave (who came along to learn) and I on our quest.  However when we got there Tezcatlipoca and Quetzalcoatl (my uncle) were there.  They said Dr. Lord was not allowed or couldn't do this for me, and seemed to keep deflecting to him.  Dad tried the pull the "isn't Tepini enough trick" but it didn't work either.  Then I managed to startle them both!  No shit!  I made the two of them think a moment...ah but then they tried to use half truths but Dr. Lord told me to focus, this wasn't about him it's about me and they were trying to knock me off course.


So I had a freakshow moment showing that if Dr. Lord did this he would become the Sixth sun...which overthrows Tezcatlipoca and Quetzalcoatl.  I told him he shouldn't do this prepared to try again another time, when Dr. Lord asked them to do it.  To be honest I was surprised, even more so when they told me to plead my case.  So I did.  I don't think dad realized before how badly I hate secrets.  And not knowing something that is a part of my soul?  No I could not live with that.  So they agreed and I got to ride on my uncles back to the doors to our Overworld.


Oh but my father...having to get the last word in.  He came up behind me and said "Well, daughter, you have become quite skilled at getting your way... I suppose I must reward that... but I also must correct that..." and carved the Aztec symbol for water into my right hand.  Oh but things are never simple with him.  The rune channels water all right BUT I have to give it human blood every thirteen days...and it cannot be my own.  FUCK!  FUCKITY FUCK FUCK!!


Quetzalcoatl went into the Overworld and returned with a bundle.  When I opened out flew what looked like a cross between a vulture and a turkey but so much more beautiful.  It's head is the red of a ruby, covered in iridescent blue jewels. The bird's feathers are a bright green, though the tips of its wings are a crimson brown, like dried blood. Spots like the eyes on a peacock's tail trail the bird's back.  Dr. Lord told me it is my father's other animal, which by the way according to myth was a god of famine and disease.


As Dr. Lord walked off and I looked at my new guide I had another vision but without the normal freakshow.  Tezcatlipoca and Quetzalcoatl were talking but I couldn't make out who's voice was who's.  They said "That was the heaviest risk we have ever taken." "It is for the best. He still has the capacity to overthrow us, but it is less certain now"  The girl troubles me, though" "True, I was not expecting her to have that insight... I fear she may be a difficulty as things go on..." "Hmm... We both have plans for her" "Yes, yes... But I think some insurance is in order..." "You mean... Oh, I see..." "Than it shall be done?" "I can see no better outcome."

So YAY!  Now I worry both my father and uncle.  Just what I didn't need!  More divine attention on me, and attention that is not looking to be good.  Though a part of me wonders if they didn't let me see that on purpose, because it wasn't channeling Fate like I normally do...

Well this is interesting...

SO we got back and Dave brought me to my room, I know cause I woke up in his arms as he was placing me on my bed.  Since I woke up he offered to make me a sure fire hangover cure breakfast so I accepted and went to take a shower.  When I got out it occured to me he's not off limits...I tried not to think about it though because he's hurting right now but it didn't stop me from slipping on one of my lingieries.  Yeah I know I'm horrible but last night was hitting me too and I was in need of something to feel better, drugs not being an option since we had training that afternoon.

Out I went and sat on the counter.  He asked about my past and what happened so i figured I'd tell him.  After all Jahi and Alex know about everything but my habit and preferences and Sean knows all of it.  It's not like I'm trying to hide it from anyone.  We ate the breakfast which was surprisingly good and were flirting a bit and he leaned in and kissed me.

No given my state of mind I was in no mood to tell him no and it wasn't like Sean was around to help me out.  I asked if he was sure, he knows I don't do relationships, and he said yes, so I told him we could go to my room since Sonia was gone.

Oh those sons of Thor have some NICE power.  I mean Sean has skill and sensuality but sometimes a girl just needs a good rough dicking.  I let him get out his frustrations for a bit before flipping him over and taking my turn.  Mmmm....such a nice ride.  The alarm went off at 1pm meaning we needed to get ready and he left with a goofy ass smile and no words (thank Fate cause I was not ready to talk about what just happened.)

I rushed a shower and got dressed and went to see Dr. Lord before tutoring (go figure all A's in school and my first tests with him are C+'s) to ask about Ix Chell.  Being around her and him got me wondering about narguals.

Dr. Lord was in and rushing, but he did tell me about the nargual.  Turns out they are literal extensions of our souls.  They are the hidden part that even we are unaware of.  He said he can retrieve mine for me and even knows what it is (though it sounds like not a jaguar) but he wants me to really think on if I want to confront this side of myself.  I'm currently leaning toward yes because I don't like the idea of not knowing a part of me.  But I admit I am scared a little to confront it.  We'll see I guess.  I need to think more and now I need to get off cause Dr. Lord just showed up.

Here's hoping his training doesn't kill me...

The second worst night clubbing I've ever had

Man I was so excited to be going to the city for some club time.  I mean I know it's an 8 hour drive but to me it is worth it.  NYC clubs have been home for me, for almost 3 years now.  Liam, Sean, Dave, and Becca ended up going with me so it promised to be pretty fun.

But as usual nothing can ever be so easy.  I had called ahead to be sure we got a VIP room and when we got there was told it wasn't ready.  Fine, whatever I had some dacing to do.  Liam got out there and was busting a move and I have to say the boy can groove.  If he weren't so damn uptight he would be worth chasing after.  Dave went to take care of drinks, Sean went to find him self a piece of ass (I assume) and Becca and I went to dance.

Turns out Becca had YET to tell Dave so I said "Let me go make out with some girl then YOU can go talk to him about it.  She agreed and went to find Dave.  I found this totally hot blond with a nice rack and had almost forgotten about WHY I was with her when I got a tap on the shoulder from Dave.  He couldn't find Becca.  So I looked around and there she was at the bar, making out with a girl.  Dave just kind of stood there in shock.  It would have been funny if it weren't sad.  We made our way over there and Becca went off about how Dave was dense and she liked him but he never saw it or picked up on it, and she couldn't wait forever.  This was where my night took a dive.

I went to check on the room only to find it was set up wrong and when I got back down and looked at the door I saw my brother walking in with his girlfriend.  He has that same cold look my father does but all I could do was stand there in shock.  He walked over and had me introduse him and told me his girlfriend was his fiance (no doubt at father's order.)  He was about to leave and I could myself starting to relax when he called me the worse thing in the world...babykiller.

On some level I know it isn't true.  That what happened was not my fault and I had no control of what occured, but it still hits deep.  He could not have hurt me worse if he had killed Tepini.  So I did the only rational thing I could do.  I fled.  I got the fuck out of there and found James (thank Fate he was in the club tonight) my old dealer.  James had some of my old favorite and without even thinking I sat down, grabbed a tube and snorted two lines.  Yes I know, not my smartest move but at that point in time all I could think about was killing myself so instead I went and found some fun.  I was just snorting the third when Dave plopped down a wad of cash and asked for two lines.  I have to say it almost shocked me out of my oncoming high.  He paid, James handed him a tube and he took two lines.

Now my high was hitting so I'm a bit fuzzy after that but I think Dave took 5 of my E pills and downed a LOT of alcohol before stumbling outside after Liam came over.  I handed him the slip for the keys so I didn't try to drive (YAY me!) and he went to find Becca.  I found Sean and danced a bit (though let face it, it was more like dry humping him on the dance floor) and then Liam came to get us.  We piled into the car and I think I fell asleep on Dave...slept the whole way home though.

Huh...home...when did I start thinking of Harmon as home?

Dr. Lord and a new car.

Dr. Lord seems to think his "egg donor" would be a good big sister for me.  He gave me her email address, that she gave him, and told me she'd like to hear from me.  Not sure how I feel about all of this so for now I will just wait it out.

Since a group of use are going to the city I figured I should go get an SUV since my Jag only rides two.  Dave and I went in to Urich and down to the dealer with plans to meet his mate, Becca for lunch.  Had a good talk with Dave, told him about my family a little and what not.  Thankfully didn't get any of the fake "I'm sorry"'s out him either.  Got my ride with minimal fuss but I still don't like HAVING to get the luxury shit.  Why I can't just have a nice Wrangler like I want I don't know.  Found his mate at the pub and invited her to go so now we are getting ready in my room.  Turns out she is into girls too but seeing as she likes Dave and he likes her, I told her I would back off both of them (though OMG it is so hard.)  Also told her if she doesn't tell him I will so we'll see how this goes...

An upswing!!

Apparently Dave is going to go hunt down one his relics that have gone missing.  No no no that's not the up side (though it would have been a day ago.)  The upside is he and I finally sat down and talked.  Things with Dave have been rocky from the start.

First was the incident with his cup.  I hate people who lie and tell half truths and he started out by doing so.  Well we talked and turns out the brew helps him to know when the drinker is in trouble.  While that is a good thing it would have saved us some trouble if he had just said so.  But he didn't want to freak anyone out so he refused to elaborate at the time.

Second was his macho attitude.  This boys are better than girls thing REALLY irritates me.  I had enough of that shit from Alejandro I didn't need it here.  So we talked about that too.  He get's it from his dad, Thor, who apparently has this "my sons are better than Siff's daughters attitude" about things.  But he promised to work on it which I appreciate.  He also asked about my visions which, even though I know very little about, I tried to explain to him.

Our third topic, and the one I was dreading the most, was over my killing the bear.  Turns out he needs blood for some of his brewing.  I told him it isn't the blood I need but the kill, and the heart.  Without them my "family" thinks the world will cease to exist.  No one has ever not done sacrifice to see what happens (not that I blame them.  If they were right then bye bye world.)  Thing is if I don't take my sacrifices in battle daddy dearest might start to force me to look elsewhere...

So we talked and we're good now.  I hope he will be ok on this trip of his and gave him my cell just in case.  When he gets back we will have to go drinking together, I think he will be surprised at how well I do.

Still waiting for that damn up swing...

SO I met with Dr. Lord again to discuss my oracular abilities.  While he isn't gifted with Prophecy a few of his bandmates are.  He told me to be careful about self-fulfilling my visions...that worrying about them can make them come true.  He unsheathed his machete which I guess cancels the earlier warning I got.

I asked about his band.  He was nice enough to tell me about them and, as Fate would have it, his fiance may be able to help me focus my visions, which would be nice.

And things seem to be getting worse with Dave.  He has this sexist attitude that grates on my nerves something fierce...then there was the incident after the fight...but I'll get to that later.

So as we get ready for Biology Lab Dr.Lord appears missing a leg...talk about a HOLY FUCK! moment.  But as concerned as I was I held myself back, reminding myself that he would not have shown up if he wasn't ok.  It was likely to show us what can happen and will happen to us later on.  As it turns out he had been captured by some Aztec's who sacrificed his leg, oh and Itzpapalotl, minor Aztec goddess showed up.  I need to remember to learn more about her an the other minor beings of my "family."  

At the same time Tepini finally contacted me to tell me they had found the lair.  The coyote and bird stayed there as Tepini and Miyet came to get us.  While we were talking about how to deal with the bears I had a freak show moment and my visions told me an amethyst was the source of all the misfortune.  So after shooting down some bad ideas we decided to face the problem head on after asking our resident dwarf some questions.  Coach didn't know anything about any amethysts so it was a dead end.  Better to have covered our bases though.

Barry (oh yeah Dr. Lord made the others go with us when Sadie and Lionel showed signs of not wanting to go) lured out the two cubs first and they went down fairly easy.  Then the three adults came and I was concerned but given the ease that the cubs went down how much tougher could they be?  As they came charging out though I saw a cloaked figure standing farther back in the woods, smiling.

Freakshow happened again this time telling me he had an amethyst and OMG my head hurt until the vision dropped.  I focused and was able to get that getting that amethyst would stop the chaos.  So I had Tepini circle around behind the man, said a prayer to my father (slitting my wrist of course....gods forbid he answer me WITHOUT needing blood) and Tepini launched himself at the man ripping his hand off!  It was the smoothest most spectacular thing I have seen him do!  

When I took that crystal from him the bears shrunk and as I grasped it I felt the full force of it's power.  My head felt like it was in a vice grip.  I dropped it and Sean wrapped a sash around and picked it up.  I decided to take Dr. Lord's advice on the sacrifices my dad wants and took the heart of the dying bear (the other had fled, and we killed one adult.)  When I did Dave screamed at me about wanting to try something.  Frankly I don't care what he wanted to do.  Better to take this bear's heart then have my father try to force me to take a person's life.

Turns out this man is an Alfar and the gem was controlling him.  Dave got a bit rougher with him than I would have liked...after all I'm a walking lie detector, and Jahi had a small break down of her own.  She wouldn't talk about it though.  Eventually Coach and Dr. Lord showed up and again things are weird with them.  Coach takes the stone and hands it to Dr. Lord to examine...something with that stone is just evil, and dangerous.  Dr. Lord had a flash of Mystery and said, "Angus, I swear on the oath we made in Moira's pub that what I'm about to tell you is of the utmost importance: Get these kids back to the campus. Make sure you're not being followed. And for the love of the gods, DO NOT GIVE THEM ANYTHING TO DRINK!"

When I got back I prayed to my father asking for him to come talk to me.  I doubt he will but hey, it can't hurt to ask right?

So yeah, still not hitting that up swing.  I think I will go hit the clubs this weekend.  I'm almost positive Cory and Sean will come with me.