Owen the earth diver.

Ok so lab was on Thursday and after it I had my first counseling session with Patrice.
  
We walked into Dr. Lord having an argument with his TA, Owen.  Seemed to have something to do with us but it's hard to tell since we only heard the tail end of the conversation.  Dr. Lord introduced Fletcher to the others and took out our dissection assignment...a pterodactyl looking creature.  Apparently it's a kongamoto and he paralyzed it so we could poke around inside it without killing it (since killing makes titanspawn go *poof*.)  We went to work answering the questions in our packets while Dave sulked over whatever was bothering him.


Suddenly we hear Dr. Lord arguing with the TA again and it sounds like he was about to barge in.  Fletcher put the spawn back in the box but as he did it woke up.  I lept at it and Tepini lept from me and we struck it together killing it.  It left behind it's tongue which Liam made disappear and he walked over to let the TA in as I released Tepini.  Owen saw Fletcher's bird and Liam explained it away as he walked over and made my machete vanish too.  But then...then he saw Kiti.  Mortals can't see Kiti much like they can't see Ix Chel and Owen saw her too. Suddenly he gripped his head and screamed "You're all them, the ones who foil Mother's plans! MOTHER GAIA, SAVE ME!" and lept out the window and into the ground.


Dr. Lord told us he had scented a scion nearby and it seems it was Owen.  He was a corrupted scion.  Someone once on our side but for whatever reason he now fought with the titan....and we were told he is to be killed not captured.


As the others left I stayed behind and waited...my appointment was in an hour.
Patrice asked me to tell her about myself and I did, then told me about herself a little.  She jumped right in on the abortion issue...trying to get me to stop blaming myself.  We talked a little about my fathers and she asked I give this a try.  Sure what the hell...if I said no I'd just piss of Dr. Lord I'm sure and I respect him too much to not try.

I could just KILL my nephew...

Ok so yeah it's only in the weird way the gods work that Dr. Lord is my nephew...but still...

So apparently I fell asleep waiting for Dr. Lord to show up...I should probably stop skipping sleep but fuck it.  He has me sit and launches into one of those "You're being selfish speeches I have heard before, followed by the guilt complex of how my father would do worse than kill him, then the threats of how Mictlan is not a nice place for suicides...and while I know all these things I can't help but cringe...cause I've heard them before...from a therapist the last time I tried to kill myself.

Then he starts to say he is going to send me to the school's councilors...and I nearly have a freak out moment.  I mean those people are even less trained than that hack that tried to get in my panties!  And on top of that he's pawning me off on someone else.  I felt like I had been kicked in the gut.  I can talk to him about these things because he does understand me...and I trust him, more than I've trusted anyone else before...and he tries passing me off to SCHOOL COUNSELORS!?

Then he caught on that Ix Chel told me to stay away and went on about how I can't try to fix things myself...I felt like I was 16 again.  He picked up his phone and called someone named Patrice, his bandmate....and schedules an appointment to talk with him.  I was feeling more and more hurt by the second...great pass me off to the next person.

I could see trying to make him understand wasn't going to help so I switched the topic to Kiti and trying to make him invisible...thankfully their was a knock at the door and I knew it was Fletch.  Dr. Lord had him come in and I introduced them...then Dr. Lord got a call from Fletch's dad...THAT made me laugh.  I hope I never have to deal with that man cause watching Dr. Lord do it...I don't think I will ever have the kind of backbone he does.

At the end of the call I heard him mutter about ex-girlfriends dad...which means he dated a sister of Fletch's....oh this semester proves to be even more complicated I am sure...

A new friend

So I went out to a bar, drank a little, went to the club again, drank some more, danced a bit, and then I smelled a familiar scent...blood...the scent of my pantheon.  I followed it to the bar where I found a very handsome Englishmen named Fletcher.


Turns out he's a newly visited son of Huitzilopochtli...our war god. Blood thirsty bastard from what I understand. So we chatted and turns out his dad came when he was dying of an OD...but he's now immune to drugs and alcohol. Apparently he's killed before too. I don't know why but this stirred something in me and I asked to go with him next time...what the hell is happening to me!?


I told him I'd introduce him to Dr. Lord tomorrow and we agreed to meet at his office after my last class...


Time to go let Tepini hunt...

A lunch made in Mictlan

So I got this invite to lunch in the fancy conference room...ya know the one they only use for VIPs and such?  So I got ready, had a nice little dress on and went.  As I walked in though I knew it wasn't gonna be a pleasant lunch cause it was all decked out in architecture and art from the various pantheons...which meant it was for or parents.

Sighing I sat down and changed my dress to jeans and a tank top and waited.  Dr. Lord was there and confirmed my suspicions and sure enough in walks our parents.  Lugh congratulated Liam and did something to/for him that I can only assume was a reward for helping me.  Thor and Dave talked about beer (shocker there right?), Alex managed to insult his father but I think that had more to do with Hephaestus being touchy then Alex actually insulting him.  Dad decided to congratulate me in my head for keeping at my cutting...why he thinks I do it for his benefit I have no idea but whatever.  I still didn't feel like eating so I just toyed with my soup silently and waited for the others...yes I know I acted like a sullen child...back off.

So it turns out this was like a progress report on how things were going.  Thor and Heph thought things were going well, but Nergal thought we should be doing more.  Sun Wukong and Coyote scoffed at him.  Vahram stands up and says we should show them our prowess...like a big battle or something to which Lugh comments it shouldn't be all fighting...and honestly I did not feel like spending my Sunday with these people any longer than I had to.  I channeled Chaos and found the best way to end this quickly was to goad Barry...which isn't hard.  I looked across the table and asked what he though of all this since the rest of our parents are demon spawn...I may have called him a Jesus freak too.

Sure enough he retorted with us being hellspawn and his father being the one true god...you could hear a pin drop.  I was laughing my ass off inside.  Nergal looked ready to kill him right there.  Coyote was amused and Vahram was in shock.  Then Barry pulled his shotgun...aiming at everyone and I goaded him some more so he settled on me.  I got a vision that his left shoulder was weak so when he leveled his gun at me I slammed my palm into it...and he was writhing in pain on the floor.

Dr. Lord explained about the spot to Vahram, Dave acted like his usual over protective self, and I sat back down trying not to smile.  Vahram yelled at his son then told us punishment was our decision.  Dave wanted to pummel him but I think that wound is enough...and now we all know about it.  But Vahram agreed with Dave.  he can go at it with him whenever and will not avenge Barry if he dies.  Stupid men.

As soon as it was over I went straight to my car and headed into town..I need drink, drugs, and dance.

I slip into old habbits

This last month has been...trying.  It started with this shit with my dad.  I spent a week fuming and trying to figure out what to do about a rune that needs to be FED HUMAN BLOOD FROM THE HEART.  I mean FUCK YOU TOO dad.  I finally went to the guys and asked their advice.  We were brainstorming when I went to find Ix Chel.  She got on my case for tying myself to closely to Dr. Lord and for my need to say the first thing that comes into my brain (including my visions.)

She wasn't a lot of help with my rune issue but she did get me thinking about how little I know about the human body, so I went to see Liam cause he is pre-med.  After discussing it a bit he said he had an idea.  As I watched he pulled out his knife and stabbed himself in the heart!  NO SHIT IN THE HEART!  I didn't know what to do other than take the blade when he handed it to me and feed the damn rune.  I was stunned.

That night he held a movie night which was fun despite the fact it was all fantasy based.  But fun to just hang out and be normal.  He even got my favorite soda which I had run out of which was nice.  Funny in high school I always thought he was a self absorbed jock like the rest...guess that's what I get for assuming things.

The next few weeks I didn't eat or sleep.  I kept getting visions of bad stuff.  Some of it of the people I know and care for, some of more abstract things but all of it bad.  After my chat with Ix Chel I knew I shouldn't go to Dr. Lord with it and my bandmates wouldn't understand.  I spent all my time out in the forest with Tepini.  He'd hunt and I'd sit in the trees getting high and cutting myself.  I know people don't understand it but the cutting...the pain it brings is the best feeling in the world.  Better even than the high my pills give me.  At one point Dave tried to get me to talk to him but he was the last person I needed to discuss this with.

A few days ago Catherine found me out in the woods.  Apparently Ix Chel did tell her I wanted to talk to her but she didn't tell her it was important...and it took Dr. Lord mentioning how worn I was looking in class to trigger a prophetic vision and know how bad it was getting.  To be honest I didn't know how much I was letting it effect me.  She made me eat a granola bar and we had a talk about Ix Chel and Prophecy in general.  Apparently being around Kiti more will help, but he irritates me so much I'm not sure it is worth the hassle.  I finally told her about all of my visions, including Dr. Lord becoming the 6th sun, and my father and uncles worry over him and now me.  It scares me that two gods are worried enough about me to interfere in my life so much.

After we finished she asked me to be her bridesmaid in their wedding.  I was shocked.  I mean she barely knows me but since Dr. Lord does see me as family she said it was a natural thing.  Now we both know I don't believe in love or relationships but I won't stand in the way of others or argue the point, so I am more than happy to be a part of it.  I finally got her number and she has mine.

As I was about to fall asleep that night I got a vision (FUCK) but it wasn't bad.  It was Dr. Lord and Catherine talking.  Turns out Dr. Lord is just as worried and confused about how to react around me as I am him, and while he is worried about me he is also a bit relieved I have not been around.  I'm not sure how to take that but I was too tired to figure it out.

Random Lyrical shit

So I have no musical talent but I am a writer and decided to try my hand at some shit seeing as I am in the middle of the worst week ever.

I would like to believe
That the things that bring me down
And the life I lead
Are one in the same and no different
Pick your mind to conceive
Of a way to pick you up
‘Cause you might just be
Going down, down, down and so


When your will breaks down
Will you pick you up?
Have you had enough?
Yes, I’ve had enough


Getting bored as I speak
On a simple lesson taught
All in one bad week
When it seemed just like we had lost everything
You awake from the night
Sometimes riding golden sun
And the heat rises
Off the ground, ground, ground and so


When your will breaks down
Will you pick you up?
Have you had enough?
Yes, I’ve had enough


Do you think if you try, then you’ll calm down
If I scream up at the sky, will you come down
If I could, you know that I would turn it around
But the things that pick me up bring me down, down, down and so

Have had enough?
Yes, I’ve had enough


When your will breaks down
Will you pick you up?
Have you had enough?
Yes, I’ve had enough

I meet my uncle...and worry him

So let's see in the past TWO DAYS I have done cocaine for the first time in months, taken Dave's V-card, gone to the rainforest and nearly got killed, argued with Dave, had epic sex with Sean, made up with Dave, went to fetch my nargual, mouthed off a bit to my father and uncle, and saw more creepy visions thanks to the freakshow.....yeah it's been a fun two days.


Let's skip to the important part.  Dr. Lord, Catherine and Luciano we're there to set this up and send Dr. Lord, Dave (who came along to learn) and I on our quest.  However when we got there Tezcatlipoca and Quetzalcoatl (my uncle) were there.  They said Dr. Lord was not allowed or couldn't do this for me, and seemed to keep deflecting to him.  Dad tried the pull the "isn't Tepini enough trick" but it didn't work either.  Then I managed to startle them both!  No shit!  I made the two of them think a moment...ah but then they tried to use half truths but Dr. Lord told me to focus, this wasn't about him it's about me and they were trying to knock me off course.


So I had a freakshow moment showing that if Dr. Lord did this he would become the Sixth sun...which overthrows Tezcatlipoca and Quetzalcoatl.  I told him he shouldn't do this prepared to try again another time, when Dr. Lord asked them to do it.  To be honest I was surprised, even more so when they told me to plead my case.  So I did.  I don't think dad realized before how badly I hate secrets.  And not knowing something that is a part of my soul?  No I could not live with that.  So they agreed and I got to ride on my uncles back to the doors to our Overworld.


Oh but my father...having to get the last word in.  He came up behind me and said "Well, daughter, you have become quite skilled at getting your way... I suppose I must reward that... but I also must correct that..." and carved the Aztec symbol for water into my right hand.  Oh but things are never simple with him.  The rune channels water all right BUT I have to give it human blood every thirteen days...and it cannot be my own.  FUCK!  FUCKITY FUCK FUCK!!


Quetzalcoatl went into the Overworld and returned with a bundle.  When I opened out flew what looked like a cross between a vulture and a turkey but so much more beautiful.  It's head is the red of a ruby, covered in iridescent blue jewels. The bird's feathers are a bright green, though the tips of its wings are a crimson brown, like dried blood. Spots like the eyes on a peacock's tail trail the bird's back.  Dr. Lord told me it is my father's other animal, which by the way according to myth was a god of famine and disease.


As Dr. Lord walked off and I looked at my new guide I had another vision but without the normal freakshow.  Tezcatlipoca and Quetzalcoatl were talking but I couldn't make out who's voice was who's.  They said "That was the heaviest risk we have ever taken." "It is for the best. He still has the capacity to overthrow us, but it is less certain now"  The girl troubles me, though" "True, I was not expecting her to have that insight... I fear she may be a difficulty as things go on..." "Hmm... We both have plans for her" "Yes, yes... But I think some insurance is in order..." "You mean... Oh, I see..." "Than it shall be done?" "I can see no better outcome."

So YAY!  Now I worry both my father and uncle.  Just what I didn't need!  More divine attention on me, and attention that is not looking to be good.  Though a part of me wonders if they didn't let me see that on purpose, because it wasn't channeling Fate like I normally do...