Apparently I've got family...

...and I nearly lost it the day I found out I have it.


Dr. Lord took us to the rainforest wanting us to find out who or what was tampering with his research stations.  Easy peasy right?  Nope not for Scions it's not.

I sent Tepini out to scout and eventually we came upon the first station where a curupira showed up.  It knew Dr. Lord and thought we were trespassing but after smelling him on me it knew we were ok.  While SOnia talked monkey to it and the others listened I gathered the samples Dr. Lord wanted, while Dave sat down sorting out whatever it is that's bothering him.

All of sudden Dave goes flying and this huge harry creature bursts out of the trees.  The Curupira screamed Mapinguari.  This thing was big, bad and angry.  Our first hits on it landed but most just bounced off it doing little to nothing to it.  When I finally got to scan it I nearly ran screaming into the forest right then...we were so out of our league it isn't funny.  I mean one hit from this thing COULD be deadly to almost any of us.  It hit Alex a few times but that boy has some set or armor that just seems to absorb every blow he takes.  Dave somehow got lucky and managed to clinch it but that didn't last long and when Alex finally landed a solid blow on it...it got madder.  When it started looking weaker I charged in and took a swipe at it but by then it was free.  I missed and it seemed to sense it couldn't hurt Alex (OH FUCK! It's intelligent) and it took a swipe at me.  Let me tell you the last time I felt pain like that was when I tried to kill myself.  Someone finally took it out and I just fell to the ground.  Liam come over and was able to do something to help stave off the pain and as I get up Dr. Lord comes flying (like he was thrown) into the clearing and 2 people walk into it.

These people are Dr. Lords...best enemies.  As there is some back and forth Jahi tells us to get the liver from that thing and as Liam does that I go for it's heart.  Now I don't know what came over me but as I prayed to my father asking for his help I didn't ask to heal me...I asked him to protect Dr. Lord.  Whatever I did worked as Dr. Lords bandmate showed up as did a herd of those wild pigs and together the two took out his enemies.  I had a freakshow moment, there were introductions and Dr. Lord healed me and took us all home.

Jahi informed us she is leaving and it breaks my heart.  I really liked her and felt close to her.  But her father is missing and while I cannot sympathize with her I understand others do have strong ties to their families.  I don't know if we will see her again but I pray she finds her dad safe.  Dr. Lord made Miyet a nemean before sending them both on their way.

When everyone cleared out I stayed to talk with Dr. Lord.  He looked so drained I asked if he was ok to which he replied (and I quote) "I was better when I didn't see you nearly dead," Dr. Lord says, "You said you see me as family, something no one outside my Band has ever done, then you nearly die.  I can take a beating, no matter who it's from." I was shocked.  I didn't have an answer to that.  No one cared the last time I nearly died (except Tez but then he had his own reasons for that.)  he told me then that Tez did answer my prayer and I would likely regret it later but to be honest it was worth it.  No matter the cost being sure Dr. Lord was safe was worth it.  At this point I needed to change the subject before things got too uncomfortable and informed him that even though he wanted me to think more on it, I was sure I wanted to meet my nargual.  The idea that there is a part of me I do not know is a little infuriating.  So tomorrow he will do the ceremony for me, and told me to bring my friends as it can be educational.  I told him to say hi to Catherine for me (his fiance) and was about to leave when he actually called me by my first name...got myself some family it seems.

Well this is interesting...

SO we got back and Dave brought me to my room, I know cause I woke up in his arms as he was placing me on my bed.  Since I woke up he offered to make me a sure fire hangover cure breakfast so I accepted and went to take a shower.  When I got out it occured to me he's not off limits...I tried not to think about it though because he's hurting right now but it didn't stop me from slipping on one of my lingieries.  Yeah I know I'm horrible but last night was hitting me too and I was in need of something to feel better, drugs not being an option since we had training that afternoon.

Out I went and sat on the counter.  He asked about my past and what happened so i figured I'd tell him.  After all Jahi and Alex know about everything but my habit and preferences and Sean knows all of it.  It's not like I'm trying to hide it from anyone.  We ate the breakfast which was surprisingly good and were flirting a bit and he leaned in and kissed me.

No given my state of mind I was in no mood to tell him no and it wasn't like Sean was around to help me out.  I asked if he was sure, he knows I don't do relationships, and he said yes, so I told him we could go to my room since Sonia was gone.

Oh those sons of Thor have some NICE power.  I mean Sean has skill and sensuality but sometimes a girl just needs a good rough dicking.  I let him get out his frustrations for a bit before flipping him over and taking my turn.  Mmmm....such a nice ride.  The alarm went off at 1pm meaning we needed to get ready and he left with a goofy ass smile and no words (thank Fate cause I was not ready to talk about what just happened.)

I rushed a shower and got dressed and went to see Dr. Lord before tutoring (go figure all A's in school and my first tests with him are C+'s) to ask about Ix Chell.  Being around her and him got me wondering about narguals.

Dr. Lord was in and rushing, but he did tell me about the nargual.  Turns out they are literal extensions of our souls.  They are the hidden part that even we are unaware of.  He said he can retrieve mine for me and even knows what it is (though it sounds like not a jaguar) but he wants me to really think on if I want to confront this side of myself.  I'm currently leaning toward yes because I don't like the idea of not knowing a part of me.  But I admit I am scared a little to confront it.  We'll see I guess.  I need to think more and now I need to get off cause Dr. Lord just showed up.

Here's hoping his training doesn't kill me...

The second worst night clubbing I've ever had

Man I was so excited to be going to the city for some club time.  I mean I know it's an 8 hour drive but to me it is worth it.  NYC clubs have been home for me, for almost 3 years now.  Liam, Sean, Dave, and Becca ended up going with me so it promised to be pretty fun.

But as usual nothing can ever be so easy.  I had called ahead to be sure we got a VIP room and when we got there was told it wasn't ready.  Fine, whatever I had some dacing to do.  Liam got out there and was busting a move and I have to say the boy can groove.  If he weren't so damn uptight he would be worth chasing after.  Dave went to take care of drinks, Sean went to find him self a piece of ass (I assume) and Becca and I went to dance.

Turns out Becca had YET to tell Dave so I said "Let me go make out with some girl then YOU can go talk to him about it.  She agreed and went to find Dave.  I found this totally hot blond with a nice rack and had almost forgotten about WHY I was with her when I got a tap on the shoulder from Dave.  He couldn't find Becca.  So I looked around and there she was at the bar, making out with a girl.  Dave just kind of stood there in shock.  It would have been funny if it weren't sad.  We made our way over there and Becca went off about how Dave was dense and she liked him but he never saw it or picked up on it, and she couldn't wait forever.  This was where my night took a dive.

I went to check on the room only to find it was set up wrong and when I got back down and looked at the door I saw my brother walking in with his girlfriend.  He has that same cold look my father does but all I could do was stand there in shock.  He walked over and had me introduse him and told me his girlfriend was his fiance (no doubt at father's order.)  He was about to leave and I could myself starting to relax when he called me the worse thing in the world...babykiller.

On some level I know it isn't true.  That what happened was not my fault and I had no control of what occured, but it still hits deep.  He could not have hurt me worse if he had killed Tepini.  So I did the only rational thing I could do.  I fled.  I got the fuck out of there and found James (thank Fate he was in the club tonight) my old dealer.  James had some of my old favorite and without even thinking I sat down, grabbed a tube and snorted two lines.  Yes I know, not my smartest move but at that point in time all I could think about was killing myself so instead I went and found some fun.  I was just snorting the third when Dave plopped down a wad of cash and asked for two lines.  I have to say it almost shocked me out of my oncoming high.  He paid, James handed him a tube and he took two lines.

Now my high was hitting so I'm a bit fuzzy after that but I think Dave took 5 of my E pills and downed a LOT of alcohol before stumbling outside after Liam came over.  I handed him the slip for the keys so I didn't try to drive (YAY me!) and he went to find Becca.  I found Sean and danced a bit (though let face it, it was more like dry humping him on the dance floor) and then Liam came to get us.  We piled into the car and I think I fell asleep on Dave...slept the whole way home though.

Huh...home...when did I start thinking of Harmon as home?

Dr. Lord and a new car.

Dr. Lord seems to think his "egg donor" would be a good big sister for me.  He gave me her email address, that she gave him, and told me she'd like to hear from me.  Not sure how I feel about all of this so for now I will just wait it out.

Since a group of use are going to the city I figured I should go get an SUV since my Jag only rides two.  Dave and I went in to Urich and down to the dealer with plans to meet his mate, Becca for lunch.  Had a good talk with Dave, told him about my family a little and what not.  Thankfully didn't get any of the fake "I'm sorry"'s out him either.  Got my ride with minimal fuss but I still don't like HAVING to get the luxury shit.  Why I can't just have a nice Wrangler like I want I don't know.  Found his mate at the pub and invited her to go so now we are getting ready in my room.  Turns out she is into girls too but seeing as she likes Dave and he likes her, I told her I would back off both of them (though OMG it is so hard.)  Also told her if she doesn't tell him I will so we'll see how this goes...

The egg assignment again...with a twist.

So in bio lab today Dr. Lord and his fiance Catherine taught us a little about illusions.  They had us spotting the differences between him and Catherine looking like him.  Thing is Ix Chel is the biggest give away.  Oh well.  He then gave us another test....C+ again.  Saturday he is holding tutoring, which sucks ass cause it is right in the middle of my Akido.

Oh and we have a new assignment (besides staying the fuck out of whatever is going on with that gem.)  We have to hatch Griffin rggs and get them to imprint on us (and I bet raise them too.)  This makes me very uncomfortable to say the least.  I mean anything that has to to do with babies and raising just strikes to close to home ya know?

Anyway, I need to go talk to Dr. Lord about this family mess.  I am such a screwed up person I am considering a relationship with a woman I had to force to help her own son.

Up and down Down DOWN

Fuck my family. 

So my father shows up, thanks me for the heart (bear hearts especially make him happy), tells me I'm doing well and if I want my special armor then he has a job for me first.  Two of our scions were sent here with a job to do and instead had been clubbing.  Father thought the outcome of their shirking their duties would be fatal so I was to go make them promise to do their job. 

I was given a mirror that would help enforce the promise and told how to work it.  Then I was to bring them to the White Jaguar.  He said if I had them and the mirror my car's GPS would take us there.  On top of it I had to be sneaky.  One hint of what was going on could apparently make things turn violent.

So I went home and changed and headed for the clubs.  Paradise Found was packed so I figured I'd head there.  I went to the bar to grab some water and scanned the crowd...it didn't take long to spot him.  He was sitting on a couch surrounded by girls and on his shoulder was a parrot that no one seemed to see.

I decided to dance near by and grab his attention that way and it worked...though not in the way I figured.  A guy came to dance with me and was about to grab my ass when the man on the couch appeared and lifted the man up demanding an apology.  Ah knights and their armor...

So anyway, he introduces himself as Emile and I took a quick sniff to be sure he was my target.  We chit chatted and went to the couch, he bought some drinks, and asked if he'd do me a favor.  "For one as lovely as you? I am at your disposal." he replied.  So I got my promise and told him to help the White Jaguar.  Let me tell you he was PISSED.  A braclet formed over his wrist and he let out an impressive string of curses.  I got his cell and went to find the other scion while he continued to try to drown his new found troubles.

I headed out not seeing another here and went to Prey Lounge.  I headed to the bar and ordered a water and this 9ft tall guy sits next to me.  I sniffed and he smelled like rotten fish and I heard a faint hissing sound.  He offered a drink so I told him anything with Tequila was fine.  We flirted a bit till I heard a female voice tell me not to drink what I was given.  Turns out Lopez is known for drugging and raping girls.  At this he pulled a blade and lunged at her but a bounce was right there and punched him out.

The woman sniffed and realized who or at least what I was and got excited.  I played dumb acting like I didn't yet know we could smell each other and we started talking.  I decided it's best not to lie to much so I answered her truthfully.  Turns out she is my sister.  Tezcatlipoca is both of our father.  She tells me he is easy on his daughters and not to push it too much.  I got her to talk about family issues for an hour and eventually to promise if I ever needed help she'd do it. 

Now let me tell you, this was hard for me.  After coming from such an unloving and screwed up family I admit I was desperate for someone blood related to be able to connect with.  I nearly didn't go through with it.  I felt HORRIBLE about what I was doing to her.

As before she started swearing up a storm and all I could do was apologize to her.  Given the look I got I could see she really was excited to have a sister too.  But dad made sure girl time wasn't gonna happen this time because once we finished they were leaving the area.

So I called "Emile" and followed her out the back, not wanting to loose track of her, when Lopez attacked her...but he wasn't Lopez he turned into a giant cayman.  She took care of him but he wasn't dead yet.  She wanted to kill him but my freakshow told me not to let her so we piled him into my trunk and squeezed into my car and followed the directions into the woods.

We head to a cabin and knocked and I swear I have never had a bigger shock since I was 16...Dr. Lord answered the door.  His fiance Catherine was with him, all bubbly and welcoming (which I like about her, I cannot wait to learn from her.)  But when he sees what I brought there is a looooooooooong pause of nothing.  Emile speaks, "Hello son." and it was all I could do to keep from fleeing right there.  I had brought him his parents...people he obviously has a distaste for.  Through the short conversation I heard apparently they named him and left him in a Brazillian orphanage.  He no longer uses that name and I do not blame him.

Catherine led me to the kitchen and did one of those fake apologies I mentioned last entry.  It's not like she is at fault for my dad making me do this.  Dr. Lord had been asking the gods for healing and nothing was happening.  So instead of taking 5 seconds to come do it themselves Tez and Quetz sent their kids to do it.  And then sent me to make them do it.

After we heard a large thump Catherine excused herself and her cay and Ix Chel walked me out.  The Cayman was no longer in my trunk and a suit of armor was on my passenger seat.

So yeah.  Not sure what I think of my sister now.  Not sure it's a good idea for me to get to know her and I am back to no family worth mentioning.  Yay me.  I'm going to go see if Sean is up cause I could do for some relaxation right about now.

Fuck family.