Well this is interesting...

SO we got back and Dave brought me to my room, I know cause I woke up in his arms as he was placing me on my bed.  Since I woke up he offered to make me a sure fire hangover cure breakfast so I accepted and went to take a shower.  When I got out it occured to me he's not off limits...I tried not to think about it though because he's hurting right now but it didn't stop me from slipping on one of my lingieries.  Yeah I know I'm horrible but last night was hitting me too and I was in need of something to feel better, drugs not being an option since we had training that afternoon.

Out I went and sat on the counter.  He asked about my past and what happened so i figured I'd tell him.  After all Jahi and Alex know about everything but my habit and preferences and Sean knows all of it.  It's not like I'm trying to hide it from anyone.  We ate the breakfast which was surprisingly good and were flirting a bit and he leaned in and kissed me.

No given my state of mind I was in no mood to tell him no and it wasn't like Sean was around to help me out.  I asked if he was sure, he knows I don't do relationships, and he said yes, so I told him we could go to my room since Sonia was gone.

Oh those sons of Thor have some NICE power.  I mean Sean has skill and sensuality but sometimes a girl just needs a good rough dicking.  I let him get out his frustrations for a bit before flipping him over and taking my turn.  Mmmm....such a nice ride.  The alarm went off at 1pm meaning we needed to get ready and he left with a goofy ass smile and no words (thank Fate cause I was not ready to talk about what just happened.)

I rushed a shower and got dressed and went to see Dr. Lord before tutoring (go figure all A's in school and my first tests with him are C+'s) to ask about Ix Chell.  Being around her and him got me wondering about narguals.

Dr. Lord was in and rushing, but he did tell me about the nargual.  Turns out they are literal extensions of our souls.  They are the hidden part that even we are unaware of.  He said he can retrieve mine for me and even knows what it is (though it sounds like not a jaguar) but he wants me to really think on if I want to confront this side of myself.  I'm currently leaning toward yes because I don't like the idea of not knowing a part of me.  But I admit I am scared a little to confront it.  We'll see I guess.  I need to think more and now I need to get off cause Dr. Lord just showed up.

Here's hoping his training doesn't kill me...